The story continues........

I was dress up for operation theatre. needles was pricked to my hand to insert the glucose water. I was brought to operation theatre area. While waiting for my turn for epidural insertion, I was struggling to breath properly.....I feel like this is end of world. Try to asked nurse help to find out if the husband had reached hospital but he still not around......

My turn to take epidural came. I remember for my 1st son, the anaesthetist asked me to curl myself for easy catheter insertion but this time another anaesthetist with different method. She asked me to sit straight. Unfortunately few times of trial failed. It was pain full yet the catheter not inserted. She informed me that my back bone is slightly bend.......Oh God ....... what a timing to have all at a time! Finally she succeed to insert the epidural. Very soon I feel numb from tummy to feet.

I was then pushed to the operation theatre. Light was on. The gynea and the anaesthetist was chit chatting while cutting thru my womb. Soon in 7 minutes I heard the little crying voice! It was so loud! Surprisingly they treat the baby so fast. They brought to NICU! They never show me!!!!! I was just so upset.

Finally after all the procedures, I was sent to my ward. I saw the husband face in the ward. It make me relieve my pain! I was not crying anymore! I was strong at that point of time! The husband told the baby is fine! Just low weight and they need to keep in incubator for monitoring. Saw him on Hand phone photo shot too.....The whole day I was dreaming about walking to NICU to see the little fellow but I woke up to realize I was on bed with all things still hooked up! I don't have much energy too.

I was sharing the room with another lady. Every time the nurse push her baby to her bed from nursery for breastfeeding, I cry in pain! I want my baby to be my side too! I took all the colostrum that I can by syringe and give it to the nurse, so that they can sent to my son! I was determine to breastfeed him!

The next day I brave myself to wake up and sit on wheel chair to go NICU. That was the first time I saw my baby! My eyes was full of tears! Some wires was running here and there.......He was sleeping. small eyes, small hands, little toes......He was just so cute! Like an angel from heaven!

I was discharged on 3rd day! I left hospital without my baby......

 

The forth day came. It was my Birthday. I have no little feeling also. Every year I will be so happy on my birthday! I'm like that since young time! We went to see our baby. Most of wires was gone. The pediatrician told me that he is very fine. Just need to keep him for few more days for monitoring! I was so relived! I asked if I can breastfeed him! The nurse told can but he will use energy and may cause his weight to drop......I don't care about weight anymore! It's just numbers but the milk is just so priceless and full of nutrition! My baby was just so smart! He suck as a big baby without any help! That's miracle baby for me!

for past 7 days we went to and from hospital to visit and breastfeed him. Luckily my mother was at home to care my 2nd son!

 

 

1st September was the 7th day! A beautiful day! The paediatrician decided to discharged him even though his weight has not reached 2kg!

We took him home so happily! Reach home so excitedly! That was first day that I felt like I'm living a complete family life. That night all four of us sleep so tight! I was lying down so peacefully beside my baby! He was smiling in his sleep! He knows that his mother will care for him!

I doze off peacefully......